I write scale model reviews to practice writing, and to give some framework to my hobby. After all, if you are an esteemed scale model reviewer, you can’t be an oversized kid playing with plastic tanks, can you? You’re doing a serious –although unpaid- work, after all. (Heck, now I’m receiving free samples from companies… not exactly a paid work, but now I could spend less on the hobby… A notion which, if you know anything about scale modellers, would make you laugh.)
Anyhow, to cut a long story short, I sent out a batch of reviews for publication, I got an email back, that some of the photos are a bit out of focus. Fair enough, I guess; I’ll have to take some more. Case close, you’d think.
Well, not so much. I had a dream last night. Apparently, the editor-in-dream sent me an email in my dream which said the following:
Some reviews are simply not good enough to be published. The model you have reviewed was already covered by another review, which we did not publish due to its low quality. We don’t think we’d publish yours, either, because it’s not good enough for our standards.
Evil dream editor
I woke up seriously upset about this email. In fact, I still am. As I said, it seems like my mind is trying to tell me something in a subtle way about having insecurities, and the burning need for validation.